short entry

lately,at times...i questioned myself... Will i be able to see my daughter grow as a/an kid,teenage,adult?..will i be able to grow old with my husband?..am i ready to face any possibilities?..

I dont know why i keep on thinking on those things..

Anyhoo,what i need to do now is to set an appointment with my Doctor and to have all my guts to go thru the examination.

i'm very nervous.period.

first birthday

Firstly thank you so much for those who came to celebrate Gegirl’s 1st Birthday! Terima kasih banyak-banyak ;) & a special thanx to Hubby a.k.a the ‘Finance Minister’, without your financial support, the party wont be a success ;P

Last Saturday, 19/06/2010, we celebrated Gegirl’s First Birthday. It was 2 days earlier than her actual Birth Date. Since it was our first time hosting a party for a 1 year old princess, plus it was kinda last minute…we decided to celebrate her so-called Big-Day at home. I said it was a last minute plan because we settled for the date a week before. Fortunately, Tuan Pengarah dpt mengosongkan schedule nya for that particular weekend. So, seminggu preparation kira last minute lah nak..mun molah pengilan maok-maok sebulan nak. Ekkk..over suda.

So the Party Planner was…none other than Yours Truly nan satu ini. Once we had confirmed the date, mulalah saya merangka-rangka apa yang perlu di-prepare/polah. The invitation cards, the menus, the goodie-bags, the decorations.








Initially, I thought of having cupcakes as her birthday cake but due to time constrain, last-last order a 2kg blackforest birthday cake, as for the makanans for that night, most of it prepared by Yours Truly with the help of the others at home of course. Some of the menu kamek order from Caterer & some di order from stall. There were Laksa Sarawak, Spaghetti Bolognese, Nuggets, Sausages, Satay, Chicken Wings, Fish Fillets, Salad,

Oh ya, actually the night before the party, ada acara “Deco Bersama Gegirl”. With the help of my cousins, jadilah balcony depan umah ya colorful & nicely decorated with ballons, crepe papers, ribbons, & whatnot. Ada tukang-pump ballons, ada tukang-ikat ballons, ada tukang nait-tanggak, ada tukang ikat ribbons, ada tukang selotep, ada tukang adjust, ada tukang tangga(Ee) & ada tukang kaco(Gegirl). Thank you cousins, without you guys sik menjadi decoration Kak Aina =)

Also to everyone yang berik present. Bagi pihak Gegirl, terima kasih tak terhingga diucapkan. =D tahun depan jumpa lagi…

27th

today is my birthday..my 27th.

thank u hubby & baby & the rest of my family/friends...u guys made my day..esp to hubby,thank u so much sayg..happy kmk aritok,walaupun red eyes. :)

Despite all the fun/happiness...sedih & sebak teramat bila tadik tengah re-read all the birthday wishes time 26th bday kamek last year...bila maca sms dr arwah syafiq..

This year and years to come...sik ada lagik dah bday wish dari nya... ;(

Al-fatihah...

sekadar meluah

siktauk dah sapa nak di susey,kamek ber-susey rah ctok ajak.kamek tgh riso menar.rasa mok nangis pun ada.riso ngan family.

Nak klaka ngan hubby,sik cun timing.sikmaok kaco nya tgh kerja,byk gik benda lain yg nya perlu pikir kinektok.kesian nya away from home dekat 2weeks kali tok.tuntutan kerja.riso juak ngan nya sinun,sik tentu rest plus pressure kerja yg amat.riso bertambah bila ngenang nya ke sibu nun by road.mudahan selamat pergi n selamat pulang juak next week.ya Allah,lindungilah dia dari segala musibah..aminnn.sik sabar kmkduak gegirl tggu papa balit.rinduuuuuu..

Aok,psl gegirl pun kmk riso sbb nya demam.nasib dah makin ok.alhamdulillah.akong pun demam ckit juak,mudahan ok nya esok.bapak... riso ngan bapak..tek mintak urut nya.bdn sik nyaman katanya.and i know,nya rindu mena ngan arwah..these few days salu nyebut psl arwah.maybe makin terasa aritok sbb mama sekda,nya g traveling.

Also,rindu & riso juak ngan hafiz d kl nun.mudahanan nya ok semua2.

Ya Allah...berikanlah kekuatan rohani dan jasmani juga kesihatan yg sejahtra untuk kami sekeluarga...aminnnn.

Suddenly i miss arwah Syafiq so much!

Sad Day

On last Friday, 23rd April…Lebih kurang pukol 6.15 pagi, when I was still sleeping, I received a call from my mom. Terbangun terus bila dgr handphone berbunyi tapi sik sempat di saut. I was so surprised, heran apahal mama yg tido next door tetiba call dinihari. Terus check bilit mama…kosong. Terus check bilit Syafiq…kosong. Immediately call-back mama nak nanyak nya di siney. No answer, so I called bapak.

Once he answered…

Me: Bapak siney?
Bapak: Bapak on the way ke Serian…
Me: Aih?! Apahal??
Bapak: ....Syafiq dah sik ada Na…accident rah Serian area…
Me: haaaaah..???

Kamek san menar-menar & siktauk nak react…kat blakang dengar suara mama nangis-nangis. Immediately run-run kamek nangis & asked Bapak once again...

Me: Comfirm kah Pak?
Bapak: Aok Na. Now we’re on the way ngagak nya. (by that time Bapak also start nangis juak which made me jadi bertambah sedih & riso)
Me: Kamek ngagak bapak jak.
Bapak: No. Kau jaga cdak d rumah. Don’t let Akong know first. Keep calm. Ask Aa to call me.

I was so shocked to hear what Bapak told me & riso yang amat bila ngenang nyaduak ajak ke Serian nun…driving ke cnun Subuh ari yg lepas ujan & dgn emosi yg kedak ya…riso menar.

Bapak also asked me to inform sedara-sedara about the news. Everyone was so shocked.

As his eldest sibling & only kakak…kamek rasa jaik ati gilak bila ngenang balit arwah. Mun ktkorg nak tauk, kamek ngan arwah selalu sik sebulu…ada ajak benda nak di tengkar. Kamek slalu molah muka kering jak mun klaka ngan nya & kadang-kadang elak nak berklaka ngan nya sbb selalu nya ending nya mesti lalu bertekak. Tp deep inside, kmk nang sayang ngan nya. Sapa la sik sayang ngan adik nak.

Selain my parents, Hafiz lah yg paling terasa kehilangan. Dalam kmkorg 3 beradik, arwah close ngan abangnya tok…& nya selalu bangga ngan abangnya n mok jadi kedak abangnya. Abangnya lah antara org yg nya most respect.

Arwah had soooo many friends & kenalan…and I just realized that they are so close to him. He was one friendly boy & kawan-kawannya rami sik kira nemiak kecik ka sama umur ka org tua ka..semua ada.

On that Friday (hari nya ninggal), macam-macam orang yang datang. Rami antara sidaknya kamek sik kenal. Ada sorang ya orang ber-kedai rah Satok ngagak juak..madah arwah selalu rah kedai nya,berguro ngan nya. Kakya sampey ada sorang makcik (mak kwn arwah) dah ditunggahnya ‘Mak’. Kakya ada sorang orglaki tua ngagak madah time nya sakit dolok arwah slalu ngabas nya di rumah,ngurut-ngurut nya (org tua ya datuk kpd kwn arwah). Ada juak kwn nya ngembak se-familynya dtg ariya..mak-bapak nya ada,anak buah nya pun ada. Sampey ke kubur cdaknya ada ngekot. Bila kamek nanya nemiak kecik ya (anak buah kwn nya)…”kitak kenal abg Syafiq?”…nangis-nangis nemiaknya jawap “kenal,nya slalu main ngan kamek di rumah mek”…jaik ati mek nengar…

Kedak ya ajak nya pergi…sekelip mata nya meninggalkan semua orang & kembali kepada-Nya. Sampey kinektok ari kamek gik masih macam sik cayak jak yg adik bongsu kamek ya dah sik ada…nya dolok ‘pergi’ dari kmkorg semua. Tapi as Bapak always remind us, semua ya ketentuannya…kita harus redha. Semua kita adalah harta-Nya & semua kita pun akan kembali kepada-Nya. Cuma kita jak siktauk bila masa kita ya.

with cousins masa semua masih kanak-kanak rebina. Arwah Syafiq kat depan skali..kiri skali (i took this pic)




Arwah with mama & Adam on Hafiz's convocation, August last year


Early last year...


Semoga rohnya sentiasa tenang & aman…inshAllah…amin…

Al-Fatihah…

gegirl's update

My cheeky little girl is already 10 months old! Another 2 months before she turns 1! In some way, her development isn’t like most of the other 10 months old baby…her development is somehow macam 12-16months old toddler. Gegirl took her very first step when she was 9 months old and now, she can walk on her own and she walks fast. Plus, she has 8 teeth to date. It surprised one of my colleagues as she said her nephew of 11 months old has 2 teeth and still crawling. Anak saya tua ija sikit la kali. =)

Gegirl is one quick-learner. Skejap jak papa nya ngajar ‘Jungo’ lalu tauk nya bila di tanyak “ney jungo ney?”. She’ll immediately show us her ‘jungo’. Other words; flower, fish, tv, lizard, bau, bye-bye, mama/mamiii, papa/papuuuuu…

As now she can walk on her own, memang sangat active berjalan seluruh rumah. And at times nya curi-curi mok nait tanggak. After few steps nait gik another step. Lebih si kecik ya. Another thing, Gegirl tauk mcmney turun dari sofa/ bed.

She’s still on the same formula milk-Enfapro and still eating Nestle Nestum with honey + cheese. I am still not letting her to eat on her own because she’ll definitely make a huge mess. She’ll splatter the foods on the floor, table and even on her dress/hair. Eating time, she’s be in her walker so that it’s easier for us to feed her. But there are times bila nya sik maok di engkah dlm walker, she’ll “kangkang kaki” so that kmkorg sik dpt engkah nya dlm walker. =) Oh ya, she loves adult foods. Mun kita tgh makan ada la nya molah muka kesian nya. Sik di berik lalu molah muka ‘geram’.

Gegirl loves watching advert on tv! Sangat suka sampey layap nya aih. She also likes to chase the cats; Misha & DekNa. Pernah skali mok tinjak perut Misha. Nasib sik di terkam si Misha ya.

Kaki-jalan. That’s Gegirl. Mun mbak jalan2 memang no problem sebab nya sukkaaaaa raon2. To date she has travel to KL (2 trips), Malacca, Cameron Highland and Sibu. 6 times naik belon (and she’s not even 1 year old). Another trip soon.. =)

This year, Raya falls in September and Gegirl will be wearing her first baju kurong/kebaya with matching shoes & handbag? ;) sik sabarrrrrr mok ngesep nya...

Skin Care

It is a normal scenario for me to be approached and told that I have smooth & healthy facial skin (alu rasa best bila dipuji.haha)

Erra : Kulit muka ktk kacak koh..beresi jak koh.
Me: Makaseh.biasa-biasa jak bah. (sambil muka blush ckit)
Erra : Apa pakey kitak o. Mesti salu g facial treatment.
Me: Biasa-biasa jak. Sik ada mek facial selalu koh. Setahun sekali pun jarang.

Erra : Apa skincare pakey kitak?

Me: La'Mer. (kidding)

* Erra ya bukan nama sebenar,hokey.

This cream cost over Rm1000!

Yes, people. I wasn’t lie when I said that I rarely go for facial. I do concern of my face, of course. Perhaps, I’m blessed with good skin sejak azali & hopefully it will always be that way. Plus, pegi facial too often is actually not good whereby it can damage our skin.

I practice normal skincare regime, still. It is very important for me to wash & moisturize 3 times daily. Bangun tidur, balik kerja & before tidur. Sik kira lelah macam ney pun, I’ll make sure that I remove my make-up. I won’t sleep with foundation/make-up on. Sangat mustahak to prevent pimples.
As most of us know, there are 3 basic steps in basic skincare regime. But I always skipped the second step – toning. Only apply selang sehari. Entah apahal pun siktauk, saja jak. What about serum, scrub & mask?? Don’t ask. I’m just plain lazy to apply them.

About my skincare products, I only have 3 of them from 3 different brands. Ya. Tiga sahaja. My cleanser is from a very cheap range – Eversoft. Sungguh sangat murah. Only about RM15 per bottle which can last for more than 3 months. I have been using Eversoft Cleanser - Double Moisturize since 6 years ago. As for my moisturizer, I’m using Olay Total Effect with Spf. This product does a brilliant job to my skin. Sangat ngam. Considered cheap too, less than RM50/bottle. My third/final skincare product is the miracle essence – Facial Treatment Essence by SKII which I applied selang sehari. This is my one and only skincare product which cost more than RM300. Oh ya, recently (about 2 months ago) I started using facial wipes/make-up remover by Simple. It's a very good product, I must say. Sangat menyenangkan kerja nak remove make-up.

Wrapping up, those 4 are my essentials and I’ll stay with my own version/combination of facial range selagi sidaknya sik molah hal ngan kulit muka saya.

Some ladies out there, they spend hundreds or even thousands monthly on their skincare products and facial/spa. Why not mun dah duit banyak nak oh. Macam Siti Nurhaliza, Camelia & other celebs. Harus la pergi Indon mandik susu suroh kulit putih & licin, kann. Harusla skincare products from La’Mer,kann.. Harusla ke spa every week,kannn... & Harusla cucuk botox/kolagen sekali-sekala, kannn..oopppss..